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i feel sad for no reason again. it keeps getting worse even though everything is good right now. i just feel like, what difference would it make if i wasn't here anymore? wouldn't it just be easier for everyone? i don't think that's selfish because it would be better for everyone, not just me. but people are gonna think i'm selfish anyways, so whatever. fine. i'm selfish. i'm the fucking worst. i know it all already. just leave me alone.