22.05.23

i don't get it. i'm high, i'm watching anime, i painted my nails red and i took the trash out. i literally have the easiest life in the entire world. but i still can't manage it. why i can't i ever be happy? why did i have to be such a horrible person? i never wanted to end up like this. i hate myself, and i deserve to. pathetic fucking coward.

i can never fix or undo what i've done. i can sit here and hide, but i can never be happy.

i think it's too late for me.